CONVENIENCE (4.05)

murdered another cigarette in her honor
still she didn’t show up
why do I even bother?
19 others died to burn away the minutes
20 reminders to myself to keep my distance...

         this is just convenience, something for the moment
         much less than forever
         this is just convenience, something for the moment
         business before pleasure...

two mature adults strike a bargain with each other
me - I get my back scratched, she - a crying shoulder
but I’m wrecking it by wanting real affection
to her I’m cheap excitement
to me that’s a rejection...

         this is just convenience, something for the moment
         better get hip, man
         this is just convenience, something for the moment
         don’t make any long term plans...

                  and lighten up
                  see it as it is, not what it could be
                  enough’s enough
                  piling all my hungers on this poor, dumb girl
                  when she’s just being friendly
                  that girl can be friendly...

I said I could love her, she looked at me funny
that was out of line, made her angry and uneasy
giving something that she’d never be returning
sets me up for slaughter
brands me for a burning...

         this is just convenience, something for the moment
         nothing I can count on
         this is just convenience, something for the moment
         man, I think you got it wrong...